I have started deleting some of my old posts. For a few months now, I have been mentally debating whether I should do that. I resisted mainly because something felt dishonest about erasing my old work. It seemed like trying to hide the fact that I have evolved.
For almost ten years, this blog has been a place for me to mess up. To try a writing tone that did not work for me, or test run a project that nobody paid attention to. While my old posts could be cringeworthy, I always cringed with a certain affection. I liked old, screwy Lane, because he did a good job making me a little better. More articulate, more courageous, more honest and authentic, and above all more aware of what he wanted.
But you know, I’ll always know how much worse I was, and nobody can take that away from me.
I ended up deleting for an absurdly simple reason; the blog was getting cluttered. Everything I have ever written left a hook out in the great ocean of the internet, and sometimes it was reeling in people who were interested in a blog that simply isn’t the one I am writing anymore. There was a post on Stranger Things that held record views for all my posts, simply because it was about one of the most popular Netflix shows. I never wrote about Stranger Things again. So, while those views were great, the people it brought in weren’t the people who were going to stick around and show interest in the projects that have longevity.
I’d rather have a small, loyal audience than a lot of passing interest. I don’t know if that’s considered sensible or not in the world of blog management, but it’s how I genuinely feel, so I’ll have an easier time sticking to it.
There are three big things that I want to do. I want to tell stories, I want to discuss how stories shape our culture, and I want to explore spirituality in the modern era. I like that blend, because they are three distinct topics, yet there’s a common theme; they all tie back to meaning. I can talk about what I am finding meaningful, I can analyze how we craft meaningful narratives on a cultural level, and I can try to create something that is meaningful to others. That is my real passion, and hopefully by focusing on it, I will do a better job drawing in people who are interested in the same thing.
In practical terms, that means my reviews will be gone, along with most writing advice. The atheist reviews of Christian pop culture will be kept, though I will be going through them and adding some notes on how my perspective has changed. I haven’t decided for sure whether I will go back and complete the Adventures in Odyssey reviews. My heart says “yes!” while my brain says “ccckkkkhhhhttttt.”
(that’s the sound of static)
I think it’s likely that I will, but last time I found the task overwhelming. There were so many episodes to get through, even after I ruthlessly edited them down. Knowing me, I suspect the task will itch in the back of my mind for months, then suddenly I’ll have a solution and dive right in! In the meantime, I’m sorry to everybody who felt like they were left hanging and I look forward to Future Lane’s solution to that mess.
Thank you for reading, and have a wonderful week!